Lately I haven’t been in a very “Hi World! I’m on Twitter, Facebook and I have a blog, pay attention to me!” mood.
There’s a lot going on, for sure. I’m having doubts about a friendship that I probably should have just let go months ago, but because of guilt and fear of judgment, (damn that fear of judgment) I haven’t. I’m annoyed, scared and feeling hopeless about my reproductive attempts, and have kind of just decided to wave my little white flag and wait until January for a sonohystogram and see what the deal is. I’m thankful that Oscar is pretty busy with work, and that my not working hasn’t negatively affected our relationship. And most importantly, I’m overjoyed because a pretty serious family issue has resolved itself, and because my little brother is graduating from college in a few weeks.
But I also realize, regardless of what’s going in on my life, as a new business owner, I need to be out there marketing my new role, and I’m having trouble doing that in a way that doesn’t make me feel like total cheeseball or a 16-year-old-girl trying to get attention.
And I know that nobody else will be excited for me if I’m not excited for me, so I need to start doing, well, something to let people know what I’m up to. Sooo…