I will no longer let the guilt eat me alive

Jan 11, 2011 | babies, loss

Today, while still in my pj’s partially due to the fact that Atlanta is covered in sheets of snow and ice and partially because my son is going through a “mental leap” that has exhausted me to no end, I hold up my little white flag to breastfeeding.

I gave it a good run. In a week and a half, he’ll be 5 months old. Of course, he’s been supplementing with formula ever since he was a month old, but I’m slowly coming to terms with the fact that this is ultimately the best decision for everyone in our family.

A few weeks ago, I discovered this blog Fearless Formula Feeder through another blog entry a friend wrote, and instead of going into serious detail about my process, I’ll share the link and let that be that.

I just needed to put it out there so I can start the process of feeling less guilty. My favorite part of one of her entries was this:

By consciously trying to “get rid” of the guilt, you are telling yourself that you have something legitimate to feel guilty about. You don’t. At the same time, you have a right to feel whatever you feel about your experience, and it’s tough to shut out those ominous voices when you are already riddled with regret and anxiety. The last thing you need is to feel guilty about feeling guilty.

Here’s to raising happy, healthy, LOVED babies.

5 Comments

  1. Layla

    I’m glad you’re at peace with your decision. You have to do what is best for you – all of you – and you no doubt are. 🙂

  2. Nadia

    Go ahead girlfriend!

  3. Trixie

    Remember….you turned out OK! 😉 Love you.

  4. Markus Parkus

    Formula or not, all that baby truly requires is unconditional love…which I’m certain you and Oscar will be more than able to provide. Much love, my dearest.

  5. Ashley

    Thanks, everybody. It’s getting easier as each day goes along. 🙂